Matilda's Mission offers a small lending library of carefully selected books to support parents, families, and professionals affected by baby loss. These books are available to borrow and are intended to provide comfort, insight, and educational support during what can be an incredibly difficult time.
Please note: Matilda’s Mission does not endorse the specific content of these books. They are offered for educational and supportive purposes only, and in some cases readers may wish to undertake their own research to ensure that any advice or information provided is up to date and accurate.
Books to Borrow for Adults
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Surviving The Loss of a Child – Elizabeth B.Brown
Nothing can steal peace and joy and undermine the very foundation of someone's life like losing a child. It is devastating on a level that most of us can't imagine. Written after the loss of the author's own child, Surviving the Loss of a Child offers encouragement and hope to those who may think they will never be able to live fully after such tragedy. Bereaved parents, as well as friends, counselors, pastors, and caregivers, will find this book a source of comfort and discover coping mechanisms as they move through their grief. Revised and updated, it has short chapters that are easy to take in, perfect for people going through this difficult time.
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Holding on to Love After You’ve Lost a Baby – Gary Chapman and Candy McVicar
Losing a child is among the most tragic experiences one can face. The crushing grief puts immense strain on the marriage, family relationships, and friendships that few can understand. That’s why this book was written. In it Candy McVicar, a grieving mom who leads a ministry for grieving parents, and Dr. Gary Chapman, relationship expert and author of The 5 Love Languages®, team up to help couples who are facing the unimaginable.
They’ll teach you how to:
Cope with the complex feelings that come with the grief process
Understand your spouse’s unique grieving needs and support him/her
Use the five love languages through grief
There is nothing that can make the pain of losing a child go away, but healing is possible with intentional hearts and the right resources.
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Ask Me His Name – Elle Wright
Ask Me His Name is a moving account of Elle's pregnancy, Teddy's life, and what happens when a mother leaves hospital with empty arms. In the UK, 1 in 4 pregnancies end in loss, but conversations about the heartbreakingly frequent experience are few and far between. In this honest and hopeful exploration of mothering, Elle shows us how she navigated a parenthood no one had prepared her for.
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The Worst Girl Gang Ever – Bex Gunn & Laura Buckingham
A practical and emotional self-help guide for anyone affected by miscarriage and pregnancy loss, from the co-hosts of the successful podcast, The Worst Girl Gang Ever.
Following pregnancy loss, it can feel like you’ve forgotten how to speak and need to learn a new language. You can tell your story to a room full of people but if no-one speaks this new language, they won’t understand. They will try but ultimately, they won’t fully grasp what you are saying.
This is us. This is our new language. It is a language built from pain, and it is a language we need to teach others. Welcome to our gang.
We are so, so sorry that you’ve found yourself here. It’s the gang you’d never chose to join but it is also a community chock-a-block full of kind, supportive, warrior women just like you.
We are here to tell you that you are entitled to grieve, and that your grief is not disproportionate to your loss. We are here to open up the dialogue around miscarriage, so we don’t perpetuate the shame, judgement and isolation so many of us feel following pregnancy loss. We are here to equip you with knowledge, tools and guidance to support and help you in whatever way you need.
Let’s get talking. Let’s get sharing. Let’s start empowering and supporting one another.
No more shame, no more taboo, no more silence.
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The Brink Of Being, Talking About Miscarriage – Julia Bueno
Though approximately one in four pregnancies ends in miscarriage, pregnancy loss remains a rarely talked about, under-researched, and largely misunderstood area of women's health. This award-winning book aims to help break that silence.
With empathy, warmth and honesty, psychotherapist Julia Bueno blends women's stories (including her own) with research and analysis, exploring the effect of pregnancy loss on women and highlighting the ways in which our society fails to effectively respond to it. The result is a galvanising, urgent and moving exploration of a too-often-hidden human experience, and a crucial resource for anyone struggling with - or seeking to better understand - miscarriage. -
Grieving the Child I Never Knew – Kathe Wunnenberg
When the anticipation of your child’s birth turns into the grief of miscarriage, tubal pregnancy, stillbirth, or early infant death, no words on earth can ease your loss. But there is strength and encouragement in the wisdom of others who have been there and found that God’s comfort is real.Having experienced three miscarriages and the death of an infant son, Kathe Wunnenberg knows the deep anguish of losing a child. Grieving the Child I Never Knew was born from her personal journey through sorrow. It is a wise and tender companion for mothers whose hearts have been broken--mothers like you whose dreams have been shattered and who wonder how to go on. This devotional collection will help you grieve honestly and well. With seasoned insights and gentle questions, it invites you to present your hurts before God, and to receive over time the healing that He alone can--and will--provide.
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Help to Heal – after the loss of a baby – LeighAnne M. Wright
Help to heal is an emotional and practical approach for anyone struggling to make sense of their new world, after the death of a precious baby. LeighAnne Wright's story of the death of her stillborn baby boy Beau, and her subsequent healing journey, is like no other baby loss book. The book is an open and often brutally honest account of the pain LeighAnne encountered, but also offers a glimmer of hope in the darkest of times. When a death occurs life can be confusing, chaotic and the world as you knew it is forever changed. Every aspect of life feels out of control and with a structured approach to processing grief LeighAnne aims to hand back that control to the bereaved. This book will be a wonderful aid to anyone who responds to needing focus and direction. As well as approaching the sadness that is felt, LeighAnne also attempts to allow the reader the chance to explore the positive memories associated with their child. After a death our minds can become clouded with only the negative. yet with a unique and refreshing approach LeighAnne invites the reader to invoke happier memories and leave the broken-hearted with more than just sadness. Help to heal is a distinctive, alternative and direct approach like no other. If you are struggling to process the tragedy you have been forced to live then pick up this book. You will soon realise that healing does not have to be a compromise for love and your need for happiness can exist alongside your treasured memories of your child. If you are struggling to make sense of your new world follow the 'Help to heal' path.
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Miscarriage, Medicine, Miracles – Bruce Young and Amy Zavattom
From one of the foremost doctors in the field and a woman who has experienced miscarriage herself comes a comprehensive, encouraging, and accessible guide on both the causes and, more important, the prevention of miscarriage.
Though one in four American women will lose her pregnancy, this heartbreaking experience remains a taboo subject, fraught with myths and misinformation. But with the right pre-pregnancy evaluation and ongoing care, for many women miscarriage can be prevented.
During forty years of practice, Dr. Bruce Young has treated hundreds of women who experienced the heartbreaking loss of miscarriage and helped them bring babies to term. Now he has teamed up with one of his patients who experienced miscarriages herself, Amy Zavatto, to write this informative, compassionate guide that combines the medical facts with insights from the patients and doctors viewpoints. Dr. Young thoroughly explains the basics of pregnancy and miscarriage, and provides in-depth answers to the questions: Why did this happen to me? and What can I do to prevent it next time? -
Beyond Goodbye – Zoe Clark-Coates
Grief can leave us feeling alone and lost in the world, not knowing where to turn for help. And yet grief is one of the few certainties in life - it is impossible to experience love without suffering loss.
Leading grief expert Zoë Clark-Coates examines the different losses we may endure in our lives, and provides the much-needed support that helps you navigate your own path through loss.
From losing loved ones - parents, partners, children, siblings, family members and friends - to answering the most common questions that are asked in this time of mourning and beyond, Zoe tackles topics that are rarely discussed but essential to address.
Beyond Goodbye balances practical advice with personal stories and emotional support. It explores common myths around loss, and offers advice for those supporting the bereaved.
Zoe's caring and compassionate guide includes a unique 60 day support plan to guide you on your way. -
Once More We Saw Stars – Jayson Greene
Two-year-old Greta Greene is sitting chatting with her grandmother on a park bench in New York when a brick crumbles from a windowsill overhead and strikes her unconscious. As she is rushed to hospital in the hours before her death Once More We Stars leads us into the unimaginable.
Her father Jayson and mother Stacy begin a painful journey that is as much about hope and healing as it is grief and loss. Even in the midst of his ordeal, Jayson recognises that there will be a life for him beyond it - if he can only continue moving forward, from one moment to the next, he will survive what seems un-survivable. With raw honesty, deep emotion, and exquisite tenderness, he captures the fragility of life and the absoluteness of death, and most important of all, the unconquerable power of love.
This is an unforgettable memoir of courage and transformation - and a book that will change the way you look at the world.
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What Do We Tell The Children? – Joseph M Primo
One out of seven children will lose a parent before they are 20. The statistics are sobering, but they also call for preparedness. However, professionals of all types are often at a loss when dealing with a grieving child. Talking to adults about death and grief is difficult; it's all the more challenging to talk to children and teens. The stakes are high: grieving children are high-risk for substance abuse, promiscuity, depression, isolation, and suicide. Yet, despite this, most of these kids grow-up to be normal or exceptional adults. But their chance to become healthy adults increases with the support of a loving community. Supporting grieving children requires intentionality, open-communication, and patience. Rather than avoid all conversations on death or pretend like it never happened, normalizing grief and offering support requires us to be in-tune with kids through dialogue as they grapple with questions of “how” and “why.” When listening to children in grief, we often have to embrace the mystery, offer love and compassion, and stick with the basics.
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Life After Baby Loss – Nicola Gaskin
When my baby died my whole world changed forever. I was left full of love, yet deeply heartbroken and faced with the task of living without my most precious longed for treasure. Following a fraught journey of trying to conceive again, two subsequent miscarriages, and an anxiety fuelled pregnancy after loss, I was finally able to welcome my baby girl into the world. This is the book I wish I’d been given – it will help you to not only survive the loss of your baby but to celebrate the life they had, no matter how brief. This is my hard won gift to you.
Losing a child is one of the most devastating events you can go through and yet, losing your baby – particularly before they are born – remains a taboo and often misunderstood topic. In this very gentle guide, Nicola Gaskin opens up the conversation around baby loss offering raw, honest and deeply empathetic support to all parents.
From coping with the initial shock, finding ways to overcome jealousy and anger, surviving birthdays and Mother’s Day, through to living with everlasting grief and the fresh round of grief and anxiety that comes with parenting after loss, it will help you to navigate through a huge range of intense and complex emotions. -
Dead Babies and Seaside Towns, One Mother’s Journey to Surrogacy – Alice Jolly
When Alice Jolly's second child was stillborn and all subsequent attempts to have another baby failed, she began to consider every possible option, no matter how unorthodox.
Shot through with humour and full of hope, Dead Babies and Seaside Towns is an intensely personal account of the search for an alternative way to create a family. As she battles through miscarriage, IVF and failed adoption attempts, Alice finds comfort in the faded charm of Britain's crumbling seaside towns.
The journey ultimately leads her and her husband to a small town in Minnesota, and to two remarkable women who offer to make the impossible possible.
In this beautifully written book, Alice Jolly describes with a novelist's skill the events that many others have lived through – even if they may feel compelled to keep them hidden. Her decision not to hide but to share them, without a trace of self-pity, turns Dead Babies and Seaside Towns into a universal story: one that begins in tragedy but ends in joy.
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It’s OK That Your’e Not OK – Megan Devine
In It’s OK That You’re Not OK, Megan Devine offers a profound new approach to both the experience of grief and the way we try to help others who have endured tragedy. Having experienced grief from both sides—as both a therapist and as a woman who witnessed the accidental drowning of her beloved partner—Megan writes with deep insight about the unspoken truths of loss, love, and healing. She debunks the culturally prescribed goal of returning to a normal, “happy” life, replacing it with a far healthier middle path, one that invites us to build a life alongside grief rather than seeking to overcome it. In this compelling and heartful book, you’ll learn:
• Why well-meaning advice, therapy, and spiritual wisdom so often end up making it harder for people in grief
• How challenging the myths of grief—doing away with stages, timetables, and unrealistic ideals about how grief should unfold—allows us to accept grief as a mystery to be honored instead of a problem to solve
• Practical guidance for managing stress, improving sleep, and decreasing anxiety without trying to “fix” your pain
• How to help the people you love—with essays to teach us the best skills, checklists, and suggestions for supporting and comforting others through the grieving process -
Saying Goodbye – Zoe Clark-Coates
osing a baby, whether through miscarriage, stillbirth or neonatal death, leaves so many parents lost in grief and full of unanswered questions.
Zoë Clark-Coates, and her husband Andy, have personally faced the loss of five babies. Out of their experiences came the charity The Mariposa Trust (more often known by its leading division Saying Goodbye), offering support to thousands of grieving parents and relatives around the world each week.
Now, Zoë writes a moving account of their experiences and how they found a way through to provide help and support for others. Alongside this are 90 days of daily support for those who are grieving, offering comfort and hope during the difficult days, weeks and months. -
Teen Grief – Gary Roe
Award-winning author and grief counselor Gary Roe wrote Teen Grief at the request of parents, teachers, coaches, and school counselors. Born of personal experience and more than three decades of interacting with grieving teens, this informative, practical handbook is replete with guidance, insight, and ideas for helping teens navigate the turbulent waters of loss. Though Teen Grief primarily focuses on losses due to death, the principles discussed can be applied to any loss a teen might be experiencing. Teens are the future. If we can help them discover how to turn losses into gains and transform hardship into something productive, positive, and good, the ripple effects could be extraordinary. As they heal and grow, they can become the difference-makers this world so desperately needs. Teens are hurting. They need us. They need you. It's time to help them heal.
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Miscarriage, What Every Woman Needs to Know – Professor Lesley-Regan
One in four pregnancies ends in miscarriage - it is the most common complication of pregnancy and also one of the least understood. Professor Lesley Regan is the first woman to hold a chair on obstetrics and gynaecology in the country and for the past decade she has worked to establish the biggest miscarriage clinic in the world.
This book gives up-to-date information on the many causes of miscarriage and the latest treatments available. It covers the chances of a successful pregnancy, how to prepare for and cope with the next pregnancy, infertility, and gives answers to the most commonly asked questions on the subject of miscarriage. Revised and updated to take account of the latest developments in the study of miscarriage, this book is the guide everyone who has ever suffered a miscarriage will need. -
I Will Carry You – Angie Smith
In 2008, Angie Smith and her husband Todd (lead singer of the group Selah) learned through ultrasound that their fourth daughter had conditions making her “incompatible with life.” Advised to terminate the pregnancy, the Smiths chose instead to carry this child and allow room for a miracle. That miracle came the day they met Audrey Caroline and got the chance to love her for the precious two-and-a-half hours she lived on earth.
Upon receiving the original diagnosis, Angie started a blog (Bring the Rain) to keep family and friends informed of their journey. Soon, the site exploded in popularity, connecting with thousands who were either experiencing their own heartbreaking situations or simply curious about how God could carry someone through something so tragic. I Will Carry You tells the powerful story of a parent losing her child, interwoven with the biblical story of Lazarus to help those who mourn to still have hope—to find grace and peace in the sacred dance of grief and joy.
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Surviving the Death of a Sibling – T.J. Wray
When T.J. Wray lost her 43-year-old brother, her grief was deep and enduring and, she soon discovered, not fully acknowledged. Despite the longevity of adult sibling relationships, surviving siblings are often made to feel as if their grief is somehow unwarranted. After all, when an adult sibling dies, he or she often leaves behind parents, a spouse, and even children--all of whom suffer a more socially recognized type of loss.
Based on the author's own experiences, as well as those of many others, Surviving the Death of a Sibling helps adults who have lost a brother or sister to realize that they are not alone in their struggle. Just as important, it teaches them to understand the unique stages of their grieving process, offering practical and prescriptive advice for dealing with each stage.
In Surviving the Death of a Sibling, T.J. Wray discusses:
- Searching for and finding meaning in your sibling's passing
- Using a grief journal to record your emotions
- Choosing a grief partner to help you through tough times
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Born to Shine – Ashley LeMieux
This powerful memoir and inspirational guide shares a story of loss, resilience, and life-changing lessons found in the darkest seasons of life.
When Ashley LeMieux and her husband lost their children in an adoption battle, it sent her into a tailspin that, ultimately, taught Ashley how to soar. Most people live with constant fears, burdens, and pains that they try to hide from themselves or others. In Born to Shine, Ashley shares a message of hope for women brave enough to admit that everything is not okay. Because the truth is that even when life is in ruins, people can still shine.
LeMieux tells her story in alternating chapters, interspersed with lessons readers can apply in their own lives. It combines personal reflections and practical tools to help women shine despite the darkness, to press forward one day at a time, and to turn their most painful moments into their greatest teachers and signposts to true, deep, unassailable joy. -
Sending Your Baby to God
The death of a baby is one of the most painful things that can happen to a family. You may never really get over your baby’s death. But you can move through your grief to healing. As time passes, your pain eases. You can make a place in your heart and mind for the memories of your baby. You may grieve for your baby for a long time, maybe even your whole life. There’s no right amount of time to grieve. It takes as long as it takes for you. Over time, you can find peace and become ready to think about the future. This book helps you navigate the pain and harsh realities of having a stillborn child.
Books to Borrow for Children
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Leo and the Lightening Dragons – Gill White
Everybody in the kingdom is supporting the brave knight Leo in his battle against his fearsome dragons. They try lots of different things to help him defeat them but eventually Leo realises that the most important thing to do is to believe in himself. This beautifully illustrated book with a poignant and uplifting rhyming story encourages children to persevere and find strength in the face of adversity, even when it seems that nothing is working. Written by Gill White for her son Leo who suffers from Ohtahara Syndrome, an extremely rare form of epilepsy, and beautifully illustrated by Fife artist Gilli B, this story has been positively received by parents of children with complex needs, by care workers and medical staff and by parents of healthy young children who love the book simply as an adventure story.
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Perfectly Imperfect Family – Amie Lands
Perfectly Imperfect Family beautifully demonstrates how a brother loves, honors, and includes his sister, who died before he was born, in the family's special days and every day.
Oftentimes referred to as a rainbow baby, children born after the death of a sibling often wonder about the one who came before them. Perfectly Imperfect Family acknowledges the stigma associated with sibling grief, loss, and including a baby who has died by sharing the loving ways in which a beloved baby can be celebrated during special days and every day.
A must-have book for all families who have experienced the loss of a baby and want to normalize their perfectly imperfect family. -
Sad Book – Michael Rosen
Very occasionally the term non-fiction has to stretch itself to accommodate a book that fits into no category at all. Michael Rosen's Sad Book is such a book. It chronicles Michael's grief at the death of his son Eddie from meningitis at the age of 19. A moving combination of sincerity and simplicity, it acknowledges that sadness is not always avoidable or reasonable and perfects the art of making complicated feelings plain. It wasn't made like any other book either; Michael Rosen said of the text, " I wrote it at a moment of extreme feeling and it went straight down onto the page ... Quentin didn't illustrate it, he 'realized' it. He turned the text into a book and as a result showed me back to myself. No writer could ask and get more than that." And Quentin Blake says that the picture of Michael "being sad but trying to look happy" is the most difficult drawing he's ever done... "a moving experience."
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The Circles in the Sky – Karl James Mountford
A beautiful and sensitive exploration of grief, loss and hope from Karl James Mountford, in his much-awaited author-illustrator debut.
One day, Fox is drawn to something in the forest – it’s something small, something silent, perhaps forgotten. It’s a bird, as still as can be. Fox is confused, upset and angry – is the bird broken? But then a little moth comes along. Kind and wise and comforting, Moth shares a gentle philosophy to help Fox understand: the story of the circles in the sky.
Told with sensitivity and style, Karl James Mountford weaves a story of grief, loss and, most importantly, hope. -
Where Did Baby Go?
Help your little ones through a confusing and devastating time with this simple, easy-to-read picture book about baby and pregnancy loss. With original rhymes and hand-drawn illustration, this book has been designed to alleviate confusion to young children, and help them understand what is happening.
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Goodnight, My Baby Brother – Alicia Barnes
In this heartfelt story, we join a little girl as her parents lovingly explain the loss of her expected baby brother.
With warm and comforting illustrations, Goodnight, My Baby Brother offers a compassionate way for young children to:
Understand and navigate their feelings of grief
Cherish the memory of their loved one
This touching story provides families a space to:
Find comfort and support together
Celebrate the precious little star that will forever be loved
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Dear Star Baby – Malcolm Newsome
I knew something was wrong when Mama called me close. She held my hand and told me you would not be coming home with us. She said you went to be with the stars instead. Written as a letter to his unborn baby sibling, Dear Star Baby shares how a little boy processes the grief he and his family experience after a miscarriage. He tells the baby all about how they were preparing their home to welcome them and the things he was looking forward to doing together. He processes his wonders, wishes, and sadness after this tremendous loss. Dad says their Star Baby feels far away. Mom says their Star Baby is always in her heart. The little boy imagines his baby sibling singing and twinkling in the night sky as he sleeps. Poignant and sensitively told, this story will help families who have lost a baby to miscarriage or stillbirth grieve and move forward together. Winner of the 2023 Northern Lights Book Awards, Family category
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The Invisible String – Patrice Karst
arents, educators, therapists, and social workers alike have declared The Invisible String the perfect tool for coping with all kinds of separation anxiety, loss, and grief. It's also been joyfully embraced as a year-round celebration of love--gifted at births, graduations, weddings, Valentine's Day, and beyond. In this relatable and reassuring contemporary classic, a mother tells her two children that they're all connected by an invisible string. "That's impossible!" the children insist, but still they want to know more: "What kind of string?" The answer is the simple truth that binds us all: An Invisible String made of love. Even though you can't see it with your eyes, you can feel it deep in your heart, and know that you are always connected to the ones you love. Does everybody have an Invisible String? How far does it reach? Does it ever go away? This heartwarming picture book for all ages explores questions about the intangible yet unbreakable connections between us, and opens up deeper conversations about love.
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Ethan’s Butterflies – Christine Jonas-Simpson
When a baby dies one of the first concerns a parent has is the impact this loss has on their young living children. It is difficult to know what to say or how to talk about the death of a long-awaited sibling. Ethan's Butterflies provides a way for parents and professionals to connect with young children who experience the loss of a sibling. This story is written from a young child's perspective and told by a pink elephant named Emma. Emma describes her deep sadness, anger and fears and poses many questions that children often raise. Emma shows how she and her family learn to live with the loss her baby brother Ethan and how they continue to connect with him in many ways, one of which is a butterfly and another is love.
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We Had to Say Goodbye Before We Even Met – Irene Teague
We had to say Goodbye before we even met is a true story about a family who have experienced the tragic and heart-breaking loss of their baby, Cadain during pregnancy. This beautifully written and illustrated book, is told from the perspective of sibling, Erin-rose, who was so excited about having a new baby brother or sister. In this poignant yet uplifting story, the family are given the devastating news that the baby has a fatal condition and would not survive long after birth. The author who is also a Clinical Psychologist has had personal experience of pregnancy loss and was inspired to write this story in the hope this book will help with explaining what happened and with normalising the grief related thoughts and feelings that children may have . There is also a helpful section for parents with tips for supporting children and themselves during this traumatic time. This book would be invaluable to anyone supporting children affected by pregnancy loss, still birth or early baby loss.
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You’ll Always Be – Callie Fryt
This book is the reflection of my 4 year old son whose life is gone too soon. He passed away from a unexpected death, leaving family and friends behind. I am hoping this book will help my own 2 year old daughter, along with other families. This book reflects the love, friendship, and growth between two siblings, one who is passed away.
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My Sibling Still – Megan Lacourrege
My Sibling Still is written as a love letter from a sibling lost to miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant death to any surviving siblings. It walks through the emotions that a child and his or her family may experience following a loss while also depicting the loving presence of the deceased child in the family's life. With gentle words and comforting pictures, this book offers a beautiful way for the entire family to remember and honor any lost little ones. My Sibling Still is accessible whether the loss happened years ago or yesterday, whether a sibling was born at the time of the loss or came afterwards. Most of all, with an affirming message of hope through suffering, it reminds us that our relationships with the little ones who have gone before us continue after death.
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The Heart and The Bottle – Oliver Jeffers
Award-winning picture book star Oliver Jeffers explores themes of love and loss in this life-affirming and uplifting tale.
Once there was a girl whose life was filled with wonder at the world around her…
Then one day something happened that made the girl take her heart and put it in a safe place. However, after that it seemed that the world was emptier than before. But would she know how to get her heart back?In this deeply moving story, Oliver Jeffers deals with the weighty themes of love and loss with an extraordinary lightness of touch and shows us, ultimately, that there is always hope.